Fresh flowers anytime I want. #thejoysofowningahome #finally
Very upset about the comments on our local news fb about the grandmother who shot and killed her two grandsons and herself. They reported she had bipolar disorder and multiple personalities and if course that cause the ignorance in locals to show. Comments about how evil she was, how she should not have been allowed to care for the children if she had mental issues, how people who kill themselves go to hell. They have no idea what they are talking about. So because I have “mental issues” I should lose my daughter and be cast out as unfit to be a parent? I love my daughter. End if story.
Marina Abramović, “Rhythm 0,” 1974
Marina Abramović is best known for her performance pieces, in which she tries to explore what is possible for an artist to do in the name of art. Her best known piece was the recent “The Artist Is Present,” in which she sat motionless for 736.5 hours over the course of three months, inviting visitors to sit opposite her and make eye contact for as long as they wanted. So many people began spontaneously crying across from her that blogs and Facebook groups were set up for those people.
Her bravest piece, however, is my favorite. This piece was primarily a trust exercise, in which she told viewers she would not move for six hours no matter what they did to her. She placed 72 objects one could use in pleasing or destructive ways, ranging from flowers and a feather boa to a knife and a loaded pistol, on a table near her and invited the viewers to use them on her however they wanted.
Initially, Abramović said, viewers were peaceful and timid, but it escalated to violence quickly. “The experience I learned was that … if you leave decision to the public, you can be killed… I felt really violated: they cut my clothes, stuck rose thorns in my stomach, one person aimed the gun at my head, and another took it away. It created an aggressive atmosphere. After exactly 6 hours, as planned, I stood up and started walking toward the public. Everyone ran away, escaping an actual confrontation.”
This piece revealed something terrible about humanity, similar to what Philip Zimbardo’s Stanford Prison Experiment or Stanley Milgram’s Obedience Experiment, both of which also proved how readily people will harm one another under unusual circumstances.
This performance showed just how easy it is to dehumanize a person who doesn’t fight back, and is particularly powerful because it defies what we think we know about ourselves. I’m certain the no one reading this believes the people around him/her capable of doing such things to another human being, but this performance proves otherwise.
I could live here. Alone. I would have made a better hermit than a wife and mother.
Since he ruined vday and admitted he intentionally set out to piss me off and hurt me, I took a napkin with my blood all over it from cutting, folded it in half and wrote happy vday on it and set it on his nightstand. I bled a lot this time. Had some trouble stopping it. I put gauze and tape on them but it bled through to my clothes. I think my meds are thinning my blood. I started drinking after that. Now I have a hangover and his parents still haven’t left. I wish my car was fixed so I could just leave.
Tired of thinking one day someone will think I am worth it. It will never happen. Marriage seems to be nothing but a business arrangement.